20 Weeks

I wonder what I would look like if I was still pregnant? What would I feel like? Today would have been the halfway point.

There is a beautiful hardwood antique style crib in my empty front bedroom. When I was looking for nursery ideas I found this Old World Crib and fell in love with it. After searching for the best price I quickly realized it had been discontinued. Crazy enough I found someone outside of Nashville, TN on Craig's List selling one brand new in a never opened box for over half price off. It was meant to be, or so we thought, and we jumped at it quickly and luckily had a precious friend who lives in Nashville pick it up for us. So I have this beautiful crib, the material for crib bedding picked out and a beautiful gender neutral nursery planned in my head with no baby on the way.

The door to that room generally stays closed 24/7, but I find myself walking up to it and pausing only for a split millisecond to wonder what it would look like if I was still pregnant, how it would be coming together, how it would look painted.

How so very different my life looks today than I thought it would be looking just 9 weeks ago.