Merry "I Don't Have A Baby " Christmas

I'm trying to be grateful and enjoy the holiday. I am so blessed to have all my living grand parents and parents here to celebrate. The holiday is really about celebrating the birth of our savior and I truly am grateful for that, but I'm not gonna lie, Merry "I Don't Have A Baby" Christmas is how I'm feeling right now. I suppose the hole I feel in my heart is to be filled with Christ  rather than a baby but I feel like He is the one that put it there. I was doing just fine three years ago when I had no desire for a baby.  Hese are my very non Christian thoughts right now about this day!