Yesterday your CASA worker called to ask your dad and me if we still wanted you if you became available for adoption. Our answer was OF COURSE! I told her we still felt like you were ours and we had lost you. We thought of you every day and mourned our loss every day. Today Stephanie Stephens texted and asked me to call her ASAP. When I did she asked if I had plans this afternoon. I said no and she asked if I would like to get my baby. Lillian these are the words your dad and I have been waiting to hear. We didn't think you would ever be coming home to us and yet here we are with you sleeping in the room next to us in the crib with the bedding I made months ago.
Immediately after getting off the phone with Stephanie I called your dad. He couldn't believe the words I was telling him. He got off for lunch at one so I was headed to him ASAP from work. I was actually in the middle of a life insurance health screening at work when I got the text from Stephanie. I finished up and left. I called Gama at school and got her out of an ARD meeting to tell her the news. She let me know Grandpa and she were headed our way as soon as she got off work.
As I began to process, for some reason all I could think about was what to bring you home in. I wanted a beautiful dress for my beautiful daughter. So I headed to Carrington's, got your dress and then we went to tell your Nana and Big Dad in person we were going to get you.
I then headed to the lawyer 's office to discuss our will. I already had this appointment set up from two weeks prior. Crazy how we needed to get this done now more than ever.
Next I went to Walmart. As I stood in the baby isle I couldn't even process. What do I even get? I left with a box of similac, a paci, three bottles, diapers and wipes. I couldn't think beyond that.
I waited anxiously for 4:00 o'clock when your dad was coming home. We loaded up in the car and headed to Tammi's. She had the ever important car seat. Half way to Lufkin your CASA called to let me know there was a change in plans. My heart sank for a second but revived itself when I heard we were just going to bemeeting in Lufkin. I chose to have you brought to Tammi's house.
And then our lives changed forever. We heard the car door open and close. We didn't know if we should go out to the car or wait. What were a few more seconds added to the past four years and four months? So we waited. And then there you were, placed in my arms. My baby. My precious baby. I have prayed and cried for you. God has heard me and finally answered my plea with a yes.
