Itching With You!

"It's been a journey" is an understatement. I am so glad God chose so well for me!

Celebrating our Seven Year Itch at Auntie Pastas.

Three Months

Three Months and Oh. So. Serious.

How Can I Not Just Hold You?

We've been like this for an hour and a half, how can I not just hold you?!

Below is a text I got today from a dear friend Ericka...

"He gives the childless woman a family, making her a happy mother. Praise the LORD! (NLT) (Psalm 113:9)" 

THIS. IS. MY. LIFE...

THIS. IS. MY. LIFE... and I love it!  Grateful for the need to wash 11 bottles at 11:00 pm. Earnestly I thank you God. I know the honeymoon period will only last so long but praying even in the not fun times I remember these moments with a heart of gratitude. 

The Pain of Holidays

I just want to acknowledge that Easter can be an extremey difficult time for those who are inferior, um...infertile (how auto correct just summed up the whole point of this post on its own).

As Christians we spend the day focused on the resurrection of our Lord and Savior but we also spend a day revolved around children and how cute they are hunting Easter eggs in their Sunday best. Post after post on Facebook can get even the strongest down. The first few pictures you think, "awe isn't that cute," especially those of your close friends. But as the day goes on picture after picture, blow after blow so easily turns to bitterness, anger and jealousy rears its ugly head.  Inferior to the masses who have their little blessing(s) from God.  You want to be grateful for what you do have and truly celebrate the amazing gift of the cross, but this struggle, it sometimes takes over and consumes you. You know God is there and you want to have faith but what does that really mean?  Faith may mean one day you will celebrate with little ones of your own but it may also mean you will always only celebrate with all your nieces and nephews and that is a  HARD pill to swallow. 

So I ask all you families to remember at some the most exciting times of the year for you as a family there are those hurting:  some silently; some not. 

And while I cannot write from experience for those who are single, I can imagine their thoughts towards those who are married either with or without children are similar. 

This post is dedicated to all those who struggled yesterday. Your array of emotions are all valid and it is okay to have them. Praying a special prayer for you today as you deal with the Easter Hang Over Blues!

He Is Risen

Today we celebrated the resurrection of our Lord and Savior. As we celebrated the first time as a family of three, I began to really contemplate how we will celebrate holidays as Lillian gets older. It's important to me that she have fun but most important the eternal reasons for each holiday is the focus. My prayer this Easter for Lillian is that the Lord calls her to Himself at an early age and she chooses to follow. 

What, You're Actually Doing It?!

This is what Lillian, Alicia and I came home to after Stephen and Uncle Banks made a trip to Lowes. I never thought it was actually gonna happen!

Lillian and I were great supervisors!

Supersize Work Shower

Have I mentioned how much I LOVE the girls I work with?

I thought I was walking into a lunch meeting but I walked into a full blown baby shower!

Smocked dress, stuffed animals, moby wrap and a highchair all make for great gifts!

Thank you ladies for all you did and for loving us so well. Lillian loves her home away from home at The Vineyard Clinic. 

I Wish I Could Share

I wish I could share my baby girl with the world right now!  But alas just another joy  infertility steals. But that is okay because she is here!

She's like an angel and I have to pinch myself daily!